Thursday, January 21, 2010
there are days, every now and again i pretend
i'm okay but that's not what gets me
what hurts most, was being so close
song - what hurts most.
&forever
11:28 PM
just came back from a family meeting at tan tock seng hospital.
grandpa was hospitalised.
he was a special one, a fit grandpa, thats what the doctor says when he first saw him.
fit as in, his body is fit, not those thin type, because he always sail out to the sea and catch piles of fish when he was young, fisherman, that was his job.
but somehow, he have problems to pee.
and diagnosis came out with an outcome, that is to go for operation.
so we had a meeting, with the whole Hung family.
but when i sit aside, quietly observe grandpa's facial expression,
when my uncle is explaining to him, its so disheartening.
FUCK IT
why do you think i'm just playing with every single words i'm saying out of my mouth?
there's time to play, and time to be serious.
you think i'm a toy to let you have fun, and at the same time me busying entertaining you?
you just can't differentiate when i'm serious and when i'm playing.
i've been keeping it for quite some time.
but, it turns out to be totally different.
it gets worst as time goes by.
this feeling is like..
getting accused, i'm effing hate the feeling of being accused.
i flared up to the max when i'm accused.
about that matter, i can't do anything because people thinks i'm joking 24/7.
just felt like bursting into tears.
&forever
11:07 PM
Thursday, January 14, 2010
As Drew Carter said after rehabbing his torn ACL: "The thing about it that people forget is that torn ACLs don't really take your speed away." said Carter. "Speed doesn't come from your knees. It comes from your hamstrings. It comes from your quad, your hips. So basically, my speed never went away. It was just a matter of getting my knees stronger. "
Honghui likes this.
&forever
10:11 PM
Friday, January 08, 2010
我走过的孤独很黑，
剩余不尽的孤独，
活着但我不存在。
&forever
12:42 AM
Thursday, January 07, 2010
thought that it wouldn't happen,
praying everytime that we will come back,
together, with different playing styles.
its like a dream, dreaming for such a wonderful outcome.
will it really happen this time?
its my dream, but i can't believe it.
&forever
2:57 AM
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
seriously, i find myself weird because i kind of miss army.
as in, training in outfield, urban areas, going for mission, and 'chiong sua'.
lol, think 99% of the ppl in camp now is feeling totally the opposite way. haha
i will be at home everyday i guess, that's kind of bored.
i want to watch movie! but crutches to cinema is kind of weird too. lol.
how?
i think about going to india for training, will be pending for me.
i don't mind going actually.
i should get a hair cut before going for surgery!
going to get a hair cut with crutches is weird too, zzz.
more dance performance for snsd please...
i kind of dislike hyoyeon when she dances alone, and gets all the ppl saying that she is the dancing queen, its like totlally nonsense. because she is like really anyhow dancing la, its not nice to watch her dance at all.
kind of irritated by her.
dinner on wed (:
what would it be?
&forever
1:11 AM
