fickled minded?
on and off?
you. its been so many years. why still show that you are waiting for her when it doesn't seems so from any angle. it seems that you will only call for her to appear when you are feeling lonely, or needs some company when you can't find a single friend or any other entertainment. and after she appear infront of you, you seems to find it a burden to send her home. make a good impression to everybody, its not only making a good impression infront of her because that doesn't seems to work. you have to show and prove it to everyone and most importantly she herself that you can and you are able to take good care of her, and not just by those nice faithful words of yours, because faithful shows through actions instead of being faithful through words.
and you. it so extra or calefare for you to enter her boundary now la and it seems so ridiculous. there is no way you are going to get her, because i don't allow. if you say that you have no intention or motives to achieve something then why declare that now when you don't wish to have something. so, just get out of here and don't fool around with her. she don't have so much feelings to care, share and spread it out to everyone. you are just a traffic light on the road that suddenly turns red. so she will just most probably stop there for awhile, and continue with the journey after it turns green. this changes very quickly, so don't bug her anymore about your stupid feelings.
and you, the most hurting one so far... i don't like it when you make her going up and down alright. because it doesn't seems funny at all doing that. why bring her all the way high up then drop her down that allows her to reach the bottom within few seconds? its a very simple procedure actually, if yes you decided that you want then just go ahead and progress furthur into it. if no just stay as friends and don't give any hope la! if you know that you are not the responsible type then don't do or say anything that needs you to be responsible for, because some words or action that you gave meant some thing. just say you are not interested or explain some things to clear the situation, i'm sure you know at least there is something going on, so don't pretend that you are so innocent and don't know anything at all. it can be very tiring for the person to go up high and down all the time, some people can't take it, so watch what you are doing. at least give her a status like good friend or close friend, let her feel secure and assured la. you can bring girls up high and down again thats not my problem, but of all people you choose, i'm sorry to say that you chose the wrong one.
you are able to go through this because i know.
you just need some time to heal some things.
you know that i will always be there for you, no matter what time is it
even if a day got 25hours or 48hours, it doesn't make a difference
because i will be there no matter what time it is.
let it out and stop the rain after that. some don't deserve those rain water of yours.
even if it rains or thunderstorm when you are raining, i will be there sheltering you with an umbrella, just beside you :)
