THE LOVE FOR THE GAME

Friday, November 10, 2006

what is friendship?
one that can make hurtful comments, without considering how i feel?
just makes you feel satisfied after saying?
i really don't know what to say to you when you said all those comments, so the only thing i can do now is to avoid you when i'm talking.
have you ever put yourself in my shoe? everybody have different roles to play in their life, and i'm always the middle person in both of the groups, and i'm like the negotiater or mediator?
actually i thought of talking to you again, but do you think its right for me to do so? in the first place why me? why not the rest who gets this shit? if i talk to you again, it will be like the past then wait for quite some time and gets back to normal?
why don't you go reflect yourself or think clearly what are you actually doing? i'm not lecturing you or something, i'm just saying all these to try to make you be a better person. the other guys don't give a damn about this, and as for me, i'm the one who is always doing this.
i'm only a human, merely human. i have enough problems to settle. and as for this, i think its unneccesary, please, please help me take this load off.
must you wait for me to past away and go on to another world then you can start knowing what is you mistake? what have you done wrong? if really works this way, i shall give it all to you. i don't what else can i do to make you happy, make you satisfied with your life. maybe i shouldn't appear in this 1989 year? i don't what you are thinking, maybe we are in different year, i'm trying my best to understand all of you, understand the needs from all of you. but, who understands mine?

i really don't know what to say and do.
and i don't know of all million people in singapore, why me?
i killed you in your previous life? i owe it to you?
fine then now you shall take my life all you want.

&forever
11:55 PM