Tuesday, April 20, 2010
&forever
11:00 AM
Sunday, April 18, 2010
when will i start to think for myself instead of always putting others infront of me?
where do i get this kind of habit or whatever you called it.
i don't think i get that from my parents because they are totally the opposite way from me.
and when will they start to think for others, putting themselves in others position and situation to think?
i have difficulties with my situation right now, yet i still have to think of you first.
i wonder if its your old age menopause starting to act out or what could it be?
i'm trying to cope with what and where i am now, and you are still adding on into it, making me frustrated.
i thought its going to be different this time, really different.
but it appears to be the same, the same situation as i expected when..
it clearly states that no one is able to do that.
i understand that its a normal result, and i saw you trying harder and better than others that i've met.
i appreciate it.
because this is honghui..
&forever
2:08 PM
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
nothing but why?
&forever
10:43 PM
Saturday, February 06, 2010
i don't understand this.
chris paul has injured his left knee, meniscus tear.
will be back on court playing in about a month's time.
what is this? so quick?
how is his case different from mine?
except that i haven't complete my acl surgery, maybe that's the issue?
but even so, that's alittle too fast for him to get back to the court, in a month's time.
where else, mine takes a year's time.
&forever
11:52 AM
Thursday, February 04, 2010
the one who starts and the one who ends. haha
&forever
9:32 AM
ROAR!! copied from wenbin.
from the time i started following, i've already know that you realised i'm following. lol
you're not the only one.
following for gossiping? that wasn't my intention.
i was going to begin going back to normal friends with you, just looking and seeing how is your
everyday life.
but, ...
anyway, i'm glad i tried.
if you want to react that way, there's nothing i can do.
"suan lerh loh." like what wenbin said.
assumption? accusing?
&forever
12:01 AM
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
class95 fm says, girls love to cuddle and talk about it on the bed after sex, but guys wouldn't like it, because their body is sweaty sticky and smelly. guys will want to take a bath after sex, this would let girls having the wrong idea. haha.
they advice to let the guys go and take a bath and catch their ball games on tv, and can get back to cuddling them on bed after an hour or two.
feels so..
watching friends having a car of their own, one by one.
sigh, and they are mostly girls.
wonder who will be the first guy to get his own car.
i love listening to class95 love songs all the while every weekday, from 9pm onwards!
best to listen it in the car while driving, but..
they are talking about tentric sex? i'm not sure if i spelled correctly.
don't know what is it, haha.
glad to think that i'm able to go out on sunday with bros without crutches.
and i'm able to attend alvin's bday too!
&forever
12:31 AM
Thursday, January 21, 2010
there are days, every now and again i pretend
i'm okay but that's not what gets me
what hurts most, was being so close
song - what hurts most.
&forever
11:28 PM
just came back from a family meeting at tan tock seng hospital.
grandpa was hospitalised.
he was a special one, a fit grandpa, thats what the doctor says when he first saw him.
fit as in, his body is fit, not those thin type, because he always sail out to the sea and catch piles of fish when he was young, fisherman, that was his job.
but somehow, he have problems to pee.
and diagnosis came out with an outcome, that is to go for operation.
so we had a meeting, with the whole Hung family.
but when i sit aside, quietly observe grandpa's facial expression,
when my uncle is explaining to him, its so disheartening.
FUCK IT
why do you think i'm just playing with every single words i'm saying out of my mouth?
there's time to play, and time to be serious.
you think i'm a toy to let you have fun, and at the same time me busying entertaining you?
you just can't differentiate when i'm serious and when i'm playing.
i've been keeping it for quite some time.
but, it turns out to be totally different.
it gets worst as time goes by.
this feeling is like..
getting accused, i'm effing hate the feeling of being accused.
i flared up to the max when i'm accused.
about that matter, i can't do anything because people thinks i'm joking 24/7.
just felt like bursting into tears.
&forever
11:07 PM
